So I was recently talking with a friend of mine. This friend had been out of work for some time but has recently found a job (thank the Lord). She was sharing with me how humbling her time unemployed had been to her. As I listened she began to tell me how many nights she had prayed for someone to invite her to their house for dinner because she had nothing to eat. She told me how sometimes she would eat just plain spaghetti noodles because that’s all she had.
As she spoke I began to get so angry at myself. I should’ve done more. I knew she was unemployed, but because she always seemed in a fairly good mood, I didn’t think things were that hard for her. I went home that night and cried. I cried because I felt like a failure, not only as a friend but as a Christian. Sometimes we can get so caught up in life and “changing the world” that we don’t see the hurt going on right in our own back yards. I felt like I wasn’t tuned in good enough to God…that maybe He tried to tell me but I was too busy to hear.
Does anyone get what I’m saying??? Have you been there? Well, I prayed-I don’t want to be deaf to God’s voice. I want to be tender hearted and eager to help others. When He says “do!” I wanna do.
I love my friend…and if she reads this, she will know who she is---to her I say this:
“I am so sorry for not being there better for you. I am so sorry that I was so “busy” that I didn’t hear God speak to me (if He did). I am so sorry that I didn’t just take it upon myself to bring you a bag of groceries. I am sorry for failing you as a friend. And humbly, I ask your forgiveness…”